Kurt Cobain’s Heroin Kit

 

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You can tell a lot about someone’s personality with a simple glance at their works. An unkempt cigar box. A dirty spoon. Cotton Q-Tips. The inescapable black marks of carbon from flame on metal. The hyper-real clutter of a ritual made to escape reality.

The world’s most famous heroin kit belonged to Kurt Cobain, and now we can stare at it in misery and angst thanks to the Seattle Police Department and their newly developed crime scene photos that are just back from the lab, twenty years too late.

An old cigar box named after an Irish singer and poet. It isn’t very dirty but it’s a bit spartan. Maybe he didn’t use this kit much. Maybe it was a backup. Maybe he just wasn’t as much of a junky as he’s been made out to be. The spoon is dirty and it looks like it has been used two or three times without cleaning. When he cooked up he let the heroin really cook, which left rings of the drug where the water evaporated. He wasn’t compulsive about it, he didn’t try to soak up every last drop clean from the spoon or save every used cotton. It didn’t matter.

There’s some cut left in the spoon. The heroin is street quality black tar. He wasn’t trying to score better gear. Maybe he just didn’t care.Two standard 1cc BD insulin syringes, but at least they’re fresh and new. Nothing to stir with except the plunger end of the syringe. Not even a cup for the water from the sink.

The cotton in the spoon is a huge misshapen lump. Those adept guitarist’s fingers working the cotton off a dirty Q-Tip and fumbling to make a pathetic cotton ball. The dirty towel laid out. A chunk of the drug chosen and placed in the dirty spoon. Going to the sink to drip water in, no longer caring if it spills. Watching the drug liquefy and cook above the flame of a cheap disposable lighter. Stirring with the plunger, carefully removing the cap, tying up with a piece of towel and sending the drug home, wondering if it will change things but knowing nothing will.

There’s nothing to clean up with. Just the dirty towel. No alcohol swabs. Just the open, oozing tube of Dr. Hauschka’s Rosencreme to anoint the burning, sensitive skin.  It may be a mess, but everything’s in it’s right place. And when the ritual is over, it will all go carefully back in the box.

Put the cap back on the syringe, put the spoon back in the box and close the lid and smoke an American Spirit without an ashtray and write about your life in red ink and stab the words into the dirt in an act of defiance against the terrible and absurd rituals of a life in pieces. That’s who Kurt Cobain was. And if you ever find yourself in the Northwest of the United States, go out at night and head west to the water. Stare into the cold darkness of the Pacific. If you feel that darkness staring back at you, then you’ll understand in the moment before you turn away what it might have felt like to be Kurt Cobain.

 

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9 thoughts on “Kurt Cobain’s Heroin Kit

  1. Pingback: Drug Kits – Which Kind Is Right For You? | Sex, Drugs & Rock 'n Roll

    • Thanks! I didn’t even know there was a topical form of nitroglycerin. He’d have been better off with Nitropaste then, but he sure doesn’t seem to have been particular about anything. Which is probably why his arms were sore enough to use the skin cream. It’s definitely Rosencreme–you can see the logo, but I imagine using the stuff would be pretty pointless. He could have used some pro tips in general, but information was harder to come by then and it looks like he didn’t care much anyway. It’s a shame.

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  2. To JunkPhilosopher-💉✨.
    Im aware you’re philosophising here,and I appreciate you for that and philosophers in general,FYI.
    I see your “musings” come from some experience in the world and mind of a Junkie.
    My comment is this:
    There’s never been proof that the cigar box & contents were Kurts.
    Ever!
    (NOW MY THEORIES INTERMINGLED W/FACT)
    It could’ve been someone elses or it couldve been thrown together by “somone” & planted
    Per “Someones” instructions.
    Kurt was home early AM on April 2nd. Dropped off after1-2ish-AM
    at home & saw Cali at approx 6-6:30 am, So “others were very aware”where he was.
    Tom Grant was called on April 3rd……OVER 24 HRS “AFTER” KURTS WHEREABOUTS WERE KNOWN..
    HE WAS HOME!…ALOT. can happen.in 24. plus hrs & Days…
    Fingerprints were never taken
    of the cigar box & its contents.
    (At least no public record of it)
    To me thats a HUGE Faux Pas!
    Fingerprints should’ve been all over the box & contents & if still in evidence now, DNA should be everywhere!
    I’ve never heard mention in 22yrs.of the Cigar box & contents being tested.
    Only the pen,shotgun,shells mainly.We all know the shoddy -job done on those items.
    -*In my Opinion/Theory*-
    The ONLY things ever “planted” in that greenhouse were- the cigar box & contents,along w/note & pen, box of AmericanSpirit Cigs,cig butts.lighter,Shotgun,shot
    gun cover,shells,hat,wallet,jacket
    money,2towels, EVERYTHING
    CONCERNING KURT!
    INCLUDING KURTS BODY!!!.
    I DO NOT BELIEVE HE WAS HANGING OUT IN THE RAIN, IN THE GREENHOUSE W/HIS REHAB BRACLET STILL ON, DRINKING ROHYPNOL-LACED ROOTBEER.
    ROHYPNOL TESTS AS A BENZODIAZAPINE.SAME AS DIAZEPAM(VALIUM) THEYRE IN THE SAME FAMILY.
    Valium is given in rehab..
    So he may have had some there.
    That could’ve been easly verified & investigated.
    The alleged “Toxicology Report'” that no one has seen,says benzodiazapine was in Kurts blood.
    We DO KNOW COURTNEY HAD ROHYPNOL UNDER HER MATTRESS OR PILLOWS IN HER BEDROOM PER TOM GRANT.
    KURT WAS STILL RECOVERING FROM ROMES ROHYPNOL.”OD”.
    THAT CAN LEAVE ONE IN A STUPOR & AMNESIATIC
    STATE FOR QUITE AWHILE.THE FACT HE SURVIVED ROME,WAS A MIRACLE!
    He could’ve been being slipped Rohypnol into alot of drinks etc at home daily, to controll him.
    Its odorless & makes you pass out & makes you slur your words & appear wasted like Kurt did in Frances’ 1st “haircut scene” in MOH. So the toxicology report needs to be scrutinized and the Rohypnol needs to be looke at more or at least as equal to, the diazepam.
    If its Diazepam(valium) then that doesn’t point to foul play as much.
    If its Rohypnol “Roofies” then he couldve been being easily drugged into a state of unconsciouness at any given time.
    He wouldnt remember anything.
    Thus,he couldve been rendered unconscious,then shot up with the lethal dose of heroin.
    Then.shot & carried into the Green house & Planted there
    They cared about him,thats
    why his hair looked “brushed”.
    They made sure he was unaware & didnt “suffer”
    There were many hours & days to cleanup and “fine tune”the scene.Plus it was raining the whole time.Anything outside(footprints, blood, etc.)is all washed away.
    (This is my only my theory!!!

    The following DID HAPPEN!;
    The one credit card was gone as were his keys from day 1.
    (Police found 2 more credit cards later when the checked
    the wallet.)
    The police opened his wallet & pulled up his ID & photo’d it.
    Kurt did NOT pull out his ID!
    The note w/the red pen stuck thru it was moved to the
    pile of potting so as a photo op
    There no proof of HE SHOT HIMSELF UP W/HEROIN THEN SHOT HIMSELF UP WITH A SHOTGUN!
    You at least have a well thought out story, compared to most out there,so no offense intended.
    Im not into “debating theories”
    But they’re so rampant,& I,like you,care about Kurt Cobains Integrity & Legacy.
    He deserves a Fair Investigation,as do each and every human being.
    Unfortunately there are too many “maybes” & not any facts, proof, or evidence that have been allowed into the case to date!
    They DO EXIST,its up to the powers that be,to reopen his case and let them in!
    How Kurt may have felt, as he looked into the “cold darkness of the Pacific” is poetic,yet a hypothical projection.
    None of us knew his mind.We each have a full time job getting to know our own mind. That IS our lifes work.Some are seeking,some are running & hiding.
    Reopening this case & testing whatever scraps of evidence that remain, hopefully,will hold a valid clue or two. A clue to “WHO ELSE” was there & “WHO ELSE” knows what we all hunger to know!.The Truth!!
    Mostly for Kurt to be Vindicated so he can rest in peace.
    I’m as heartbroken & mystified as anyone,but the hypothesizing, name-calling,& fighting eachother must stop.
    It DOES look,from the outside objective viewer, like madness prevails in the “Justice for Kurt” camp and we’re all lumped together.
    People that are curious do read all the mudslinging on Twitter & Facebook etc! They’re turned off. They Lable & Catagorize & Judge……….Its Human nature.
    Conspiracy theororists,
    Fanatic, Crazy,Rude!
    A group should be unified and respectful if they dont all agree.
    Bottom line, this is a crime.
    A death has occurred and there has been a long hard fought that continues today to get the evidence collected that points to foul play in this death, brought to the attention of the entity that can and will change this cause of death to undetermined and open a new investigation by an outside agency.
    Thats the simplicty.
    Rampant theories are being served up with contempt for those who dont partake or agree. Its self-defeating & quite off-putting to those that are sincerely interested in supportng Justice for Kurt.
    Unless someone is pulled up & out of the deep well of the vows of silence,taken long ago,this matter,either by newly found evidence,dna,fingerprints,etc
    Or their own guilty conscience,
    this will remain a Travesty.
    A cold, Unsloved Mystery.
    An arena for debates based on “maybes,” “ifs” & theories.
    Im rooting for Justice.
    I recommend seeing “Soaked in Bleach” on Netflix,Hulu, for sale on Amazon
    It has the most reliable evidence collected by Tom Grant the PI hired by Courtney the Day AFTER she knew Kurt was home,April 3,1994 to report him “MISSING”, as he had escaped from rehab on April 1,1994.
    Tom Grant has spent the last 22yrs fighting mostly alone till BenStatler met him & joined forces by making the film “Soaked In Bleach” based on the evidence Collected byTom since’94.
    Damning audio tapes of phone conversations w/Courtney Love
    are but a part of this increadibly shocking,excellent docudrama
    This film has turned the tide and has helped & is helping the public & media finally sit up & take this seriously.
    Also go to- cobaincase.com
    for all of the information Tom Grant has amassed up to present day.Its called the Genesis of “Soaked in Bleach” by Ben Statler
    We dont have to agree but realize no one would know there was something wrong w/this case if it weren’t for Tom Grant.
    At least hes been willing to fight to find out for sure.
    All thats being asked for is an undetermined to replace suicide as COD on the death certificate.
    Thats Fair for anyone who was denied a fair investigation.
    Do your own research.
    I dont believe in bashing others that dont agree with YOU
    Im speaking not to the “junkphilosopher” (fyi)
    this to,but to those that know who they are.
    This is not about any one of us here.
    We dont know what happened to Kurt.
    WE WEREN’T THERE
    We want to at least get his name cleared.
    Its about joining to fight for The One of us who is no longer
    here to, as he said:”Everything I write is about is about Good vs Evil.All I can do is Scream about it into a microphone”–Kurt Cobain
    That persons Scream was Silenced by Evil.
    Evil lies & Seperates.
    Good is truth & Brings Together
    We are One!
    All in all is all we are
    All in all is all we are
    All in all is all we are

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